UNIVERSAL ADVICE

Dear Humpty Dumpty,

Thank you for letting me in on just how insecure you are. And you’ve probably told me over the years how insecure you are but I think it was in my face today in a way that it really made me think about you differently. It also made me think about the way I carry myself and really wanting to just say things are either good or bad. I live so much in an all or nothing type of world but my emotions live in ambiguity and therefore so does my confidence. And as you say there across from me just as handsome as you could ever be I watched you talk your way around how a Rita’s Water Ice + Tequila + Lime 🍋‍🟩 Mix that you liked was just okay because you hadn’t known how anyone else felt. And as I started to say this we were interrupted and I chose to see that as the universe saying … “This is not your battle.” And as I took that much needed car ride back I realized that you are the ultimate pseudo - let me place all of my relationship sitcom episodic hopes in you getting it together in hopes that I’ll have my go home Roger moment come back snatched and you’ll finally see me as more than Troy’s cousin or your pseudo-cousin. I never knew what to do with that answer today. I kept saying the more I’m around and show you that I’m not just that little cousin the more you’ll come around negating that even if me working on myself was the end result of trying to show you (or anyone else for that matter) something different that I am preparing myself for something that I don’t know and that’s the scariest part. I’ve put myself out there to you and time wasn’t going to change that, if anything it was going to make our friendship or at least acquaintanceship closer and that’s just what I need to accept. This guy yesterday told me that I needed to adjust my own expectations of myself (whilst I was in the middle of adjusting my expectations nonetheless but I digress) and the more I fight to be seen by you and any other person from my past the more I’m closing myself off to whatever if ahead for me. So thank you for being a catalyst for me to see my growth and I really wish you could see you how I see you because for every ounce of non-confidence you have, I think you light up every ounce of a room and always have. And I think that you show up as yourself in every situation and your authenticity is something that I’ve always respected, and as timid as you might be, your smile and your laugh can always get my attention. So thank you for giving me a real life kid heart-throb but I guess I really did meet my idol and it wasn’t cracked up to be … instead, it just cracked me but hopefully that just means I’m breaking into something new and unbelievable to even my mind. Can’t wait to see how we’re both doing a few years from now. I don’t know 🧐 but I will just say… Good Luck and I Hope We Both Are Happy!

Today I want to give 2 Pieces of Advice to the world that have been given to me this week:

1. “Any obstacle in your path… is your path.” - TikTok (2024)

2. “If the love is not reciprocated, he’s not the love of your life.” - Raven D (2024)