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I've never loved anyone the way I loved you. From the moment we met, I knew you were different—effortless, magnetic, undeniable. You were the first person I ever truly envisioned a future with, the first person I wanted to share every version of myself with. You embraced me in a way no one else ever had, and for that, I’ll always be grateful. I learned so much from you, even when I wasn’t ready to understand it. But love, as I came to realize, isn’t always enough.

Loving you was both an awakening and a reckoning. You showed me that love could feel like home, that I could build a life with someone who truly saw me. But I also learned that when two people are dreaming of different things, love alone can’t hold them together. I cried for what we were, for what we could have been, for all the ways I didn’t realize until too late that we were writing two different endings. I thought Washington would be our fresh start, but now I see it was a crossroads, not a destination. You were searching for a forever home; I was searching for a journey.

For the longest time, I thought I lost everything when I lost you. The day you left, it felt like you took my heart with you. But you didn’t—you filled it. What you took was my purpose, my drive, my reason. And in the space you left behind, I had to sit with myself. At first, it felt unbearable. But now, I see it for what it was—a chance to rediscover who I am, separate from the dream of us. I’m glad you got your Vegas, and I’m glad I’m keeping my Delaware. Maybe we had to lose each other to find ourselves. Either way, I’m grateful. And I’m finally letting go.