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I WAS TOLD ALMOST 20 YEARS AGO THAT I WAS NEVER GOING TO FIND LOVE AND THAT MY FRIENDS AND FAMILY WERE GOING TO TALK ABOUT ME BEHIND MY BACK FROM A VERY HURTFUL CONVERSATION THAT I NOW HOPE CAME FROM A PLACE OF CONFUSION AND NOT A PLACE OF HATE. BUT I INTERNALIZED IT, AND LET IT INFORM HOW I MOVED THROUGHOUT LIFE. SO IT WAS NO SURPRISE TO ME WHEN I FOUND OUT THAT FINDING (ROMANTIC) LOVE WAS ACTUALLY DIFFICULT (FOR DIFFERENT REASONS BUT ALSO BECAUSE A NORTHEAST SMALL STATE GAY HAS ITS OWN CHALLENGES) BUT THAT WHEN I DID START TO HEAR THE CHATTER BEHIND MY BACK I MADE MY PEACE WITH IT AND I BOWED OUT QUIETLY ☘️ 👋🏾. FOR SOME REASON, FINDING OUT THAT PEOPLE STILL DON’T BELIEVE IN THERAPY HURTS WORST. AND I THINK IT HAS MORE TO DO WITH HAVING ACCEPTED WHO I AM FOREVER VERSUS THE WORK PUT IN TO CREATE THIS CAREER. IT’S BEEN 10 YEARS IN THE MAKING, BUILDING BLOCK AFTER BUILDING BLOCK, LEARNING ABOUT THE WORLD THROUGH AND OBSERVATORY EYE AND BY PROXY INVESTING SO MUCH INTO MYSELF AND SEEING SUCH A GOOD OUTCOME TO WATCH OTHERS SUFFER IN THEIR OWN SILENCE… WILL JUST BE AN OBSERVATION I WILL KEEP FOR THOSE THAT CARE TO LISTEN TO ME. SOMETIMES YOU HAVE TO LET PEOPLE FIGHT THEIR OWN DEMONS AND LET THAT BE THEIR OWN CROSS TO BARE. TO MEAGAN, I HAVE A BIBLE (OR 2) THAT I’VE HAD FOR A VERY LONG TIME (PROBABLY SINCE I WAS A KID OR A TEENAGER) 😂 YOU WERE THERE WHEN I STEPPED FOOT 🦶🏾 INTO THIS FIELD AND YOU TOOK ME UNDER YOUR WING 🪽 AND YOU TAUGHT ME TO NOT LET PEOPLE GET UNDER MY SKIN, THAT I CAN ONLY DO AS MUCH AS I CAN DO, AND THAT TRUE CONNECTIONS REALLY DO STAND THE TEST OF TIME AND THAT NO MATTER WHERE I GO, WHAT I DO, THAT I CAN ALWAYS CALL BOOP AND BE THERE. SOUNDS A LOT LIKE THE MESSAGES FROM THE BIBLE TO ME 📖! THANK YOU FOR YOUR GUIDANCE, YOUR TRUTH AND YOUR LOVE! I’LL APPRECIATE YOU FOREVER ♾️ TODAY’S LESSON KIDS … MIND THE BUSINESS THAT PAYS YOU 😉 IF YOU NEED SOMETHING, TAKE IT RESPECTFULLY, PEACEFULLY, GRACEFULLY… FULLY. I STARTED THIS BLOG BECAUSE I HAD SO MANY THOUGHTS AND THINGS TO TALK ABOUT AND COULDN’T FIGURE OUT WHERE TO START. FIGURE OUT YOUR STEP 1 AND GO FROM THERE!

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